okiess... i am so tired...
no time.. no time...
i need more than 24 hrs to do my stuff...to spend more time with him, to sleep..
to shop, to catch up with frenze, to get ready to fly off...
and everyday after work, i am so dead tired..i have practically no energy to go anywhere...
and if i really did, it's cuz they are important.. haha..

goodness.. i have never feel so tired before when i was on the way home just now.
i am like floating in the air.. my legs are walking but they hardly have the strength to hold my body weight. wei~ its not cuz i am heavy k? my eyes can hardly open too... that my bf gotton hold me tight and look out if i might knock onto any pillar or smth.. argh.. whatever..
grumpy...

grumpy week... grumpy day

hrmmp.....

Have u ever felt the chill of loneliness?when you have no close frenze to count on, only those who walk in and out of your social circle? but they are just not the frenzes whom u can pour your woes to?

Those Hi and bye "frenze", smile and hugged you as thou they are the best buddy in the world but will suddenly vanish when u need help.

How about those who treat you so nice, yet backstab you without you realising it?

Have u ever encounter being left out by all your frenze?? For instance, u are the last one to know that there was a celebration and it was all over when u knew it. or maybe knowing the event through many people but not the organiser himself/herself?

i do see people around me going throu it. and i do feel lucky that i am not the "one of them". Maybe its because i have already found my best and closest frenze so i need not try to search for them... maybe i have yet to know such hideous people and of course, i would never want to know them. still, we will never understand those people motive if they really want to be the way they want...i just hope i am able to handle and tackle "that type of people" without making myself feel depress and miserable... cuz i want them to feel miserable instead of me taking it...

oh well, thats life!

the toughest win

:D

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anyway, jess's birthday was really a day that shows true friendship...
hahaha... i think i am so evil cuz i can actually smile for what happen that night and act as thou nothing happen... what a frenze i am. but u cant blame me manz, cuz its not my birthday and i cant invite them when the birthday girl dunn want or forget about them..
haha... anyway, i can be a really good frenze. :D
really...
really...

am i right, wei wen and jess????
hahahaha

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am i really that bad??

i dunn know....i'm confuse. i'm at a loss of the next move.

no matter how much i try, i can never be a good girlfrenze.

i have so much thing in mind... but i cant put it into a clearer picture.
its draining my willpower.


my heart ache. my tears blurred my vision.
but i must not cry. not infront of other people.


god, pls help me and give me the strength to move on.

i finally manage to dig out time to blog. haha... maybe i should say i have nothing to blog about..
arghh.. whatever.. grumpy me...

currently having attachment and its only week3...
haiz..i am damn sick travelling all the way to changi business district early in the morning. Gotton wake up at 6 plus to get ready and head to work by 730am, just to catch the company bus. and why company bus rite??? Because the company is located very far from the MRT station and there is only one freaking public bus that is going there and you will have to take 20 mins if u actually walk from Expo mrt... its so Ou lu!!! but still there are alot of other logistic companies and blabla companies there too.. arghh..

guess u people dunn know where i am attached to unless we always catch up.. haha...
oh well.... :D okie..whatever..i'm being random.

anyway, i am attached to TNT. If u have not heard of it, it is a logistic company like FedEx, UPS, DHL... compared to other companies, TNT dunn really publicize as much so I'm not surprise if u ask me what does the company do.
hmm... somehow i felt kinda lucky that i was posted to TNT and i am doing smth related to my studies. cuz i was so worried that the annoying school will post me to werid places just to do admin work and i even tried to self-place myself but it was tough to get through. haha... thank god for hearing me. :D :D

Met up with Joyce and Sharon after work last week and sharon gave us "cold sweat" manz. haha... its the third day after she got her license and she nearly knock onto another car. ai yo...new driver still so reckless, if not all her effort of getting the license will go down the drain.
I realise I dunn like to drive compared to last time... rather let others fetch me, sit back and relax.... haha... hope my driving skill wouldnt rust. :D

yeah.. FINALLY all my projects are over...
i can have a nice sleep and do all the stuff that i missed out during my project period.
woohoo....... and my mask is waiting for me.. haha

i went to tighten my braces last week. and i have no idea why it is so tight compared to the previous time. usually after tightening, i can either use the side teeth or the few front teeth to bite my food... but this time, i can use neither of them... the pain is so "suan" that i rather not talk and eat. so i just drank milo or soup for lunch/ dinner... and keep feeling hungry thoughout the day. haiz... its like torturing myself. my mum seem rather worry and upset seeing what i am going through so she kept asking what i wanna eat so that she can cook for me. sweet rite??
yepyep.
oh well... just gotton endure with it.
as the saying goes "ai mei bu yao ming"
hahaha.... i can "ren"... i can!!!


anyway, i called the traffic police today regarding the conversion of my M'sia driving license. But i was being put to an answering machine. And i really hate answering machine. it is really frustrating. you gotton listen to a pre-record human voice speaking to u... and u have to follow exactly what she says just to get your things done.
please press 1. For enquires please press 5. blablabla....
its like u gotton listen to all the options before u can decide on which number to press. damn waste of time.
yea..maybe for the organisation, they wanna narrow down the enquires from customer by directly them to different department or call centre. But tell me, which customer likes to "talk" to an automated answering machine...
hrmmpp... whatever... i am just grumpy...


Recently i have frenze who are in the dilemma of breaking up... or they are chilling off.
and majority of them are in a long term relationship. hmm... 3 to 4 years??
they have quarrels, disagreement, past lies haunting them or "the feeling has fade away"

Of course, its normal for couples to have arguement. But what exactly lie underneath these predicament?

When a couple is in a long term relationship, they tend to expect their partner to do/react what they should be doing. because of the years being together, the level of understanding should be there. But there will sure be times like "i tot u know i dunn like", "why u always need me to repeat?"

Moments when feeling fade but you know you will still love her/him. How are u going to struggle all by yourself and get the feeling back? How are u going to make things work out?
Its a headache rite? ya.. it is...

How about taking your partner for granted? will u do that without realizing it cuz she/he treats u like queen/king?
Or you cant bear to break up cuz you are so used to the life with him? seriously, u have to draw a clear line between loving the person and being used to the person in your life. loving her will make u feel that there is a need to have her in your life. but being used to the person without love, carry no value in continuing the relationship.

Anyway do u encounter people who ask if u are attached then carry on asking "how long have you two being together?" haha.. i guess we do lah. and usually their reply is: "huh! 4 years? so long. Can get married already lah!" blabla.... haha.. maybe they just casually commented smth like tt.. but u have to think whether is he the one for you, is the understanding between u two deep enough to carry on to the next level rather than concluding everything just because of the years being together.

somehow i feel that number of years being together are just numbers for the sake of memory. what's important is the chemistry between a couple, the love and understanding that will sustain a relationship. The forgiving and forget to ease the tension with one another.

i wouldnt say that i am good at handling it cuz i am constantly learning from my mistake and from my bf.
oh well... everyone do learn as they grow up rite... :D

cheerio!!!!!! stay happy people!!!!

preverts are just an annoying piece of shit... damn assholes...
why izzit always me and not other people.... did my face stamp with a "come scare me"???seriously, i am damn pissed... i really dunn understand why i am so sway.
its not becuz i am home late or i wear clothes that are revealing. (and i also dunn really wear revealing clothes lah)
those fucking ass randomly pick females to stalk or flash. BUT why am i so unlucky that i will encounter twice at my house downstairs.
arghh..... and previously, it happened in JB twice again. these man are damn sick manz.
ya...they have achieved their aim by scaring me but it is really outrageous, they flashed as thou their dick is mean to be out.
arghh... angry angry.
but why did i get scare so easily and walk away quickly....
should have scolded and shouted at that asshole.
anyway, i did report to the police immediately during the previous time
and the blanga quickly walk away cuz he know i called the police...
but then... what can the police do?? patrol around the housing estate??
but they cant do it every hour rite... haiz... whatever it is, i am damn sway...

my girlfrenze out there, pls be more careful when u are out or on the way home k??
and if u encounter such mentally disable, just kick his dick (touch wood) :)
arghh....
hope this freaking bad luck will end now!!!!