How time files. And I am back from Germany for about 3 mths.
really do miss the days when i am there. the winter, the environment, school and my friends.

There was once when i need to walk back home to get my lappie for a revision. before i left my classrom, the snow was not so bad...but as i was walking out of the school, the snow gets heavier and the wind starts to get stronger. my front vision of the town and the mountain is all white, i can hardly see anything. and i stood there for a moment, thinking if i can really make it back to my apartment alone. because i have never encounter such bad weather before and of course i felt terrified to walk back alone. moreover, there are not many people on the streets. in the end, i had to pick up my courage and walk back.

oh well...oh well... many fun and memorable memories there but I am back.. back...
back to my love ones.. back to my beloved bf. =)

anyway some updates of my current life..
1) busy and busy.. nothing but busy at work. (forgot the kind of life i wanted...)
2) more rest so that i will have the energy to chiong at work...
3) need ways to de-stress myself (retail therapy???)
4) planning where we should go for our 5th anniv
5) celebrating birthdays and many birthdays (mum, sis, nephew, collegues, secondary sch frenze, poly frenze..)
6) joining california fitness (work out more to burn off those calories and keep myself healthy)
7)spending time with jeremy. (haiz.. but i am too busy at work and too tired after work to meet him. feel so guilty..=(
8) hrmmp....forgot what i still did....

okie.. i need to get some beauty sleep to start work tomorrow.

hope u guys will stay happy and no monday blues if u are working...
=)

Cheerios!!!!!!!!!!!

My bf has decided to accept NUS offer and continue studying in Singapore, not Aussie...
Initially he planned to go Aussie to study to get his degree early..he even had all his documents ready and send it to the school...
He didnt apply for NUS but NUS still asked him to go for the test & interview. so he just went for the test and see how izzit..
And... ya, he received a letter of offer from NUS yesterday....
Shouldnt i feel happy for him and call for a celebration for his acceptance to NUS...
congrad him, be so excited about it, give him a hug/kiss, treat him to a nice dinner... plan a getaway trip... ...etc
well.. i didnt do any of that... i just feel nothing..
nothing...
why???
cuz i hope he will go Aussie to get his degree and masters. but his family suggested that he should go NUS since the duration of his course is not much of different... about 4 years. (3 yrs degree, 1 year masters)
well... so i just let him decide what he really wants and try not to influence his decision.
so conclusion: NUS.....
haiz..okieokiee..

ESTEE NEO CAN U STOP FEELING THIS WAY!!!! ALSO NOT U STUDYING LAH... IT IS HIS DECISION AND HE IS THE ONE STUDYING IT..
MOREOVER YOU ARE HIS GF, SHOULDNT U BE MORE SUPPORTIVE AND STOP GIVE SUCH A FACE... I TOT YOU TOLD HIM THAT WHATEVER HIS DECISION IS, YOU WILL SUPPORT HIM... NOW U ARE DOING THE OPPOSITE!!! Arghhh!!!!!

be happy can... be happy... :)

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starting work this coming week...
My offical step to the working world....

TNT Express...
haha.. yea.. i am going back to TNT Express.
Although i have worked as an intern last year... it will be totally different this year..
i will be entering the company as a perm staff... and will be seen as equal status with my colleagues
not the small girl i was once called when i was doing my internship...
haha.. thou i am the youngest there lah...
haiz.. i am stress now.. i am afraid that i cant meet my manager's expectation... i am scare that i will be so stupid when my colleagues tried to teach me smth... i am scare i will do smth wrong...
How will it be like??? how will next week be like???
really hope everything will go smoothly...

God... pls bless me... =)

anyway, it is really great to see my colleagues again and be able to work with them..
they are like a big, cosy family...
everyone is so nice.. no backstabbing... one united team.
well well... glad to be back...


Pls wish me luck k???
heehee...


have a great day ahead.... :)

great great.... Dr said that i would be able to remove my braces soon...

i think it will be in another 3 to 6 mths... and no more bracey ESTEE!!!!

yeah yeah... i really do anticipate that day manz... haha...

i still remember when i was struggling whether to put braces last year...

because i do not have the courage... and putting braces was never in my mind nor was it a solution for my bunny teeth. And during that period of time i really hate seeing myself in the mirror.. i feel my teeth are so ugly. i hate to smile in a picture, seeing my bunny teeth before anyone face in the picture.. i really do hate it... hate myself??? a little...

do i sound depressing??

oh well...everyone will go through such phrase in life rite??? the growing up stage???

so so... after speaking to Pam (she did her braces too) and sharing her experiences with me... it kinda give me more courage and motivation.. if not i can really drag and drag..year after year thinking and not doing anything... haha... and i bugged so many people, asking them for opinion...

my poor jeremy is one of them... haha... and he said that he dont really encourage me to go for it....

why??

"because i love you for who you are and there is no need to go throu such pain to look beautiful. To me, you are always beautiful... "

so sweet rite... heehee... anyway, I can tell that he didnt say it just to make me feel better... haha.. oh well... i know him well enough to judge that, that why i am his gf!!!! hohoho...

whatever it is...i still went for it...

and here i am now!!! with neat and straight teeth...

HAPPY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... wanna see the differences ??? (tried looking for the best up close photos)

okiee.. i put a funny picture of me and jess with super Retro hair... (BEFORE)

Nat, Christina und Me (AFTER)

i think the picture is not clear enough!!! sianz....

okie people.... if u have been hesitanting whether to put braces and you feel that your teeth look bad.... GO FOR IT!!! it will really change your look and your smile... and seriously, u will have more confident..

I wouldnt say that i look prettier lah... oh pls, i not so thick skin... i am encouraging people because it will improve your overall look.. IMPROVE...

unless you wanna have a major change for your looks then go plastic lo...

haha...

** Christina thanks for your gift =)

really miss u and Nat....

Birthday is coming....

**smiles smiles**

=D


cant wait to know what he is planning... =)

Happy early Birthday to me...


woohoo.............

The last trip in Germany: Lugwigsberg

Before i fly back, Andy suggested a few places he wanted to show me instead of having a drink or meal together. so we decided on Lugwigsberg because i love seeing the interior architecture of the palaces and it is also nearer to Mosbach which will only need about half an hr drive. so i called Pat & Kate along too. =) oh manz... miss the two crazy girls!!

LUDWIGSBERG PALACE

Ludwigsburg Palace is one of Germany's largest baroque palaces and features an enormous

baroque garden. The palace was at times one of the most magnificent courts in Europe.

**Andy arranged a english guilded tour for us too...

** oh god...the baroque is so beautiful...
This is one of the hallway in the palace.
**King Friedrich's bedroom

**Queen's bedroom

so below are the pictures of the palace garden....

**me and crazy kate... (miss this russian girl so much)

okiee.. thats all... haha.. too lazy to type...

picture speaks louder than words..

take care people!!!!

A few pictures that i took when i was on the way to school...
It was during end of March when the snow were rather heavy..
oh ya.. my camera is not so good that it can take the falling snow..

we were busy snow fighting during break so didnt manage to take any photos of our crazy moment. =D

Arghh... boring lecture...

anyway, the past 2 nights was horrible... it is freaking cold because the heater is down and there is not hot water to bathe.. so i had to boiled water... =_="
and my room is so so so cold..... as thou my bedroom is open air.
haiz...hope the repair man will come today to repair it.... if not i can die...
ahhhhhhhhhhhh....................................


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GREAT!!! going home soon... =)
woohoo.......
but before flying off, i will be staying at Frankfurt for a few nights to go for some shopping and meeting up with one of my German frenze. I think she is going to bring us to take some kind of transport that will show us around frankfurt scenary while we can try Frankfurt popular drink "Apple Wine". i ever tried that in Heildelburg, it smelled nice but doesnt taste as good. so we shall see ya?
only me and patricia is going back first. Fang Shuai will leave one day later to eat his XXXXXL BURGER and maybe spa?? =_=" yup...i know i know..he is crazy.
The other 3 is going slovenia, Lon (France), Florence; Venice; Rome (Italy), Manchester (UK)..
hrmmp.... is there still other place???
oh well.. not sure.....

anyway, i am rather upset that i cant go Venice and Prague. =(
oh well... hope i can go next time...